Debutante

Let’s get to the juicy stuff. You know what makes these tedious, teenage years bearable? BOYS. Well, what else?

Haha. It’s really an open question. Who doesn’t go gaga over the opposite sex especially during these long years of nouveau-puberty period.. All the testosterones, extrogen, and progesterones - you gotta admit are all out of control during these years.

So anyway..

After the unrequited love I got (or didn’t get) from Dan.. (and later on from Ken) I was almost sure I’d be an old spinster for the rest of my life. Once the self-doubt sets it, there’s really no stopping it. BUT I’m glad I have this one guy right now.. You see, after six years of my adolescence (since age 12 to now..) I haven’t had any of those things they call a “relationship.”

Don’t say it out loud, but I’m really not lucky with boys.. or men. Lately, I’ve been semi-”involved” with taken guys - that lead me to presume I’d be a mistress when I grow up. Pretty ambitious, huh? But I really think I do have the tendencies to just be a mere parasite into other peoples’ relationships… Because maybe I’m scared of the real shebang..

I don’t know.

But yeah.. this guy.. I hope he’s for reals. I’ve had enough of all the bastards that came my way. Let this be real, for once..