Debutante

Except for my imaginary weight problems, I can pretty much say I’m happy with my life right now. I’m unusually optimistic these past few days and it does feel good.. Even my 35-dollar parking ticket didn’t mar my high spirit.

School’s almost done, and I’ve gotten my final marks on some of my classes. I have a C in chemistry. That’s a bummer, but I guess it’s okay. My parents would probably skin me open when they find out but hey, life goes on and all the birds will sing, there’ll still be sun, and yea, they can scold me to death but it won’t change my grade. I am a C chemistry student.

I’ve finally admitted it to myself. All along I’ve blamed my teacher for my own shortcomings. Anyways.. we’re done with that. And I’m satisfied with it. I know I’m better than this and I’ve got the rest of my life to prove my proficiency in chemistry. Tsk. I’ll tackle organic chemistry in the future, you’ll see.

My family’s great.

My car, though a little cluttered, is doing good..

My friends are cool.

My love life is… on the verge of manifestation.

All is good.

… and for the first time, I’ve actually looked at myself in the mirror and honestly thought.. “Rina, you’re beautiful.”

It’s not conceit. No. It’s not narcissism.

I’ve come to love myself. And now, I think I’m finally ready to love and be loved.

Aw, man.