Debutante

I dont know.. Maybe because I just have my period today, and I’m pmsing like a motherfucker. BUT I’m really upset because my ‘friend’ JC and I were supposed to meet up and go watch movies today.. I’m not gonna use the term “go out” because that’s being too presumptuous on my side (as it turned out, obviously). And it meant so much for me.. And I really thought he was gonna come.. And I had my hopes up..

But the fucker stood me up.

Maybe if it was just another guy it would’ve been okay. But JC was/is different. This is the guy I wrote poems for. The guy who I know I love deep down inside.. And no, it’s not one of my “I-want-to-fuck-you” kind of love.. It’s one of those unconditional love I never believed in until I’ve decided to become a martyr for him. Ehh.. the story’s way too long, way too cheesy to be told again.. Our story is all crap anyways.

Damn it. This blog is getting personal. I’ve always wanted to keep the sane Rina talking here. Not the cheesy side of me. I save all my love dramas for my other anonymous blog.

Whatever.

I hope JC finds a way to this blog and reads this entry and knows how shitty I feel right now.

On the other hand, it might just be my menstruation.